People tell her lies that all i wanted was to see how far i could get with her.. that i was only in it for the physical benefits.. that i didn’t actually like her and now he believes them. why cant she believe me when i tell her the real truth…. that i did like her a lot! and that she was my entire world. that sex and seeing how far i could get was the last thing on my mind.. no! it wasn’t even on my mind. and i was so afraid of loosing her that i was so hesitant to do anything which led me to loose her :/ i changed my whole future for her. because that is how much i liked her i was willing to change anything just in case we did last longer than six months. and now she is gone. i hope that we can date after high school so i can show her that i really did like her and that what i felt for her was real……. and you know something? i still do like her, and would do anything for her. i don’t know why i still like her but i do and that’s good enough for me and maybe ill figure out why. i feel like i am talking to myself. no one reads this anyway
“And I’m still here, waiting here, to catch you if you fall. I don’t know why I care so much when I shouldn’t care at all.”
that was weird. i got onto the computer and actually had to wear my glasses :/ cuz im old and im already loosing my eyesight.
Keeping my fingers crossed, im setting my plan in motion